Emotions

Happy New Year everyone!

I am so glad to start this new year in a country where racism is over! I feel like a new born babe, able to be exactly who I want to be, exactly the way I want to be.

One of the things I most enjoy about the new America is that now I can have any and all of the emotions I want to have without feeling like I am being a representative for my race. I can just be "Angry Tamika" instead of the "angry black woman" or I can be "Happy Tamika" without being labeled "Nell Carter," you know what I mean. I can just be me. My emotions aren't related to my race anymore. It was so frustrating in the old america when I would get angry or upset about something, it could be anything- it could have been how the bakery messed up my neice's birthday cake, and people would immediately make it into a racial thing, "do you think it's because you are black?" What? No. Even when I tried to explain that it was because my neice aways wanted blue icing on a cake and the bakery gave me green icing (ew), people still said "I bet they were really scared of you because you are such an angry black woman." or the woman at the bakery said "I'm not prejudiced, we just got the order wrong." I hadn't even mentioned race.

Now, I can complain and bitch and moan all I want and I'm just being me.